I am pissed off because of some reasons, none of which (after listing down everything as profound as Shakespeare's writings as possible so that I won't blame myself for probably being lazy or making excuses) is my fault. NO! NONE! NIL! ZERO! KOSONG! NONE OF WHICH IS MY FAULT!
I am working as a teacher. A new teacher. So, essentially, every teacher has to, at certain point at the beginning of their career, buy a lot of things that the school cannot provide *cough* without having to whine and make excuses. You know, stuff like access to free photocopy services and stuff. Marker pens are free though. Thank God. *rollseyes*. Of course, they aren't afraid to give free stuffs if the price of the 'provisions' are close to nothing in the first place.
I love my students. I really like to teach them. I really want to make them the best. I really want to make them know that I would play a big part of their future and life. You know what, I don't even care if they forget me. But if I ever knooooow that even some of them succeed in life, that would make me the happiest guy on earth.
I have two good classes and two weak classes (one is very very weak, so weak to the point that they don't even know what the word 'disappear' means - let's blame the pitiful and shameless primary school teachers who let this happen & they are also the reason why it takes our kids five to seven years LATE to get into the Reading Age phase than the rest of the world - what a blasphemy). I want to revamp the weak classes into something the other teachers and parents would not believe could happen. I want to transform the good classes into being the best of the bests. You know, stuff like "Wow, their English is very good for their level. I wonder who taught them." "Well, it's Sir Rahman."
NO!! THIS IS NOT ABOUT GETTING APPROVAL FROM ANY-FUCKING-ONE!! THIS IS A PERSONAL GOAL!! ALL THE WAY DEEP FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!
But you wanna know what the problem is? I haven't got my FUCKING salary yet! I can't keep being cheap on resources! Yes there's a free-to-use printer in the staff room but I'm not one of those who would consider it a free photocopying machine! (HEY, MAYBE AFTER THIS I WOULD!) I have a total of more than 100 students. Three lessons a week for each class. You do the math.
Come on Mr. Finance. Please sneak yourself into my bank account. Don't postpone. The future of my little brothers and sisters is in my hands. I wished you were already prepared with this pay thing.
