Change?

Is this change? Is this the 'Change' that many people fear? I thought I had experienced it and laughed at comments about Change that it's the one thing that many people fear to encounter. Or is this buyer's remorse? It can't be. No, I'm not in denial because I knew it was one thing I've always wanted to get so bad that if I didn't, I would regret it for the rest of my life.

So, is this Change?

One thing I realised the moment I received the key to my newly purchased sports car was that the wheels were my responsibility. That's it. I've never been responsible for any big things in my life (except my education) and to have something else of a great cost hung under me.. it's something new. My peers coped with it way earlier not because they purchased sports cars one or two year earlier, but they were always responsible for themselves. Any action they did or anything they wanted to buy, they had to work for it.. and me? I was lazy and if I ever got into trouble, I used to run back to my family members for help. In my defense, I'm the youngest in the family so I'm naturally feeling obliged to be whiny and run away from problems that could be solved by my kins and parents.

But the best thing about this realisation is that I finally understood what I want in life. Now that I'm working with decent monthly salary, I found out I always keep looking back to my previous self, the laid back, relaxed and coffee enjoying lad with no big and ridiculous dreams. Sometimes certain things need to happen in order for us to see what we've overseen. Now I realised I've always sought for a great BUT simple life.

I'm glad this happened. I just drew a big smile in my face. I'm a happy lad. So, what's next?